valentine's daaay .

aka. singles awareness day . HAHA, i love that name .
i feel like, if i go to sleep ; then everything that happened today will go away .

but, i'm not tired . and i just drank a caramel macchiato . so ; i dont think i'll be tired for a while ..
SO, today .was just HORRIBLE . that stupid THING at afterschool -___- god, that PERSON should be so sorry right now. cause, if he's not. he is seriously heartless; freaking yelling at me for NO APPARENT reason ! but, i have people i vent to, so i feel muchmuch better ;)

AGH, still. there's this feeling inside that i can't explain. i hate feeling vulnerable and lost. but, everytime i think about THEE GUY , i wanna be with him and i wanna talk to him . and it honestly hurts. i have no idea what to do. TODAY, i felt the first pang of jealousy . -___- it absolutetly sucked. i HATE this, yet. i can't hate him D;

and the GUY , im into is like SO freaking moody . D:
HOWCOME , they can't make a mandatory "understand girls 101"? it's not THAT hard , gosh. yet guys are clueless.

i dont wanna be like this D; at ALL. i hate it . i hate checking my phone every five minutes, waiting for a text . i hate waiting around for him to sign on . i hate looking for him whenever i get the chance . i hate thinking about random topics, just so i can get a chance to talk to him . i hate sneaking a glance at him every time i look in his direction .

why do guys NOT get it ? it makes it so hard for a girl, i swear.